Phew guys…it’s been a long time since I’ve blogged here or really written anything in long form. I kinda regret that I allowed myself to get so busy pouring into Instagram alone that I neglected my blog here.
Today’s post is a little different – it’s a compilation of thoughts that have been on my heart for a while, that I just haven’t been able to verbalize until now.
Since 2018, I’ve been hosting this blog and posting online under the handle “lifestyle of an anxious mom.” I remember choosing that handle and feeling excited for the opportunities and possibilities that awaited as I worked hard to grow my audience and pour into my blog.
As I look back and reflect on the last 8 years of having an online presence, I have mixed feelings about it all. On the one hand, I had fun working brand deals, getting freebies from collabs with different companies and making a few bucks here and there. My goal was never to make a living off of content creating, but rather to create a place where I could encourage anxious moms, share resources, and make connections. I am thankful to have achieved most of that in these 8 years.
Reflecting on this new year – moving into 2026 – I don’t feel the same hopefulness and positivity in this space anymore. Though my audience has grown bigger than I ever anticipated, I have found myself feeling even lonelier and more empty than when I started.
I have realized that this platform has brought me support over the years in many ways, but it has also allowed me to stay comfortable not interacting with the real world and making connections in my own community – with people I can see and touch, who feel my presence and notice my absence.
I don’t want to insinuate that I have not gotten friendships, great conversations, connections, and feelings of warmth and pride from the people I’ve met and spoken with over the years as a result of this platform. I am so beyond thankful for the ways you have impacted me for good.
I am thankful, and I am also feeling like my time in this online space is coming to an end. Maybe one day it’ll re-emerge as something new and refreshed, but for now – this chapter is coming to a close.
Thank you to everyone who has engaged, supported, encouraged and participated in this online space. Maybe I will return to instagram with renewed optimism, but for now an indefinite break is needed.
You can still follow me on Facebook and occasionally over at the Anxious Girls Club. Wishing you all the best and reminding you one last time that you are not alone 🫶🏻
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